La Tigre Bianca

My dear "friend",
I know that I must wait, I must trust you, but I can’t do this anymore, I need some answers!

Sometimes I feel like there’s something bigger between us.. but maybe I’m wrong, why is it always my fault? I feel like all that surrounds us is bad.. but then you come to tell me that I’m right and I understand you and we feel the same emotions.. you tell me looking into my eyes that I’ve never disappointed you and you trust me as always.. But, you know I’m not that confident.. I can’t trust you like that, I don’t trust my own mind.. why don’t you just tell me what’s wrong? I don’t care if it all is your fault or mine,I care about you.. I want to talk to you without regrets and I want your help! I need your help! I wish you’d talk to me sincerily like I do!.. there are just too many phony people around me.. and I always lose the one I love.. but I can’t talk to you everyday of my life like you mean nothing to me! You mean a lot! And I don’t care if you’ll read this or not! You know it so well! You know everything! Just stop making me feel so alone! you just keep making me feel sad and gloom.....using the words that hurt me so bad!..just stop this I can't believe you are superficial and mean like this!!!! But can't you understand what is really important? I hope there are other people who love you like I do, I know what I feel, I'm not confused or something,I know who we are, we've been everything, we were, you don't understand or prentend to, but the truth is that you can't change the feelings, we don't have that power! And besides I can't see the reason to do stop , what we feel is not strange or something, but what do you have in that mind? you always have to make everything big, like a tragedy ...Is not that hard to understand! We just love each other, pure love, I want just your friendship and what you want me to have.. and I know that all you need is love, and a friend, someone to trust, we do feel the same way, even if we are diffrent, I'm not afraid of love, I don't want to hurt you, never meant to, never. You hurt me all the time, because you don't know what to do. Open your eyes! We're here. I'll wait for you forever, even if I won't tell you. And maybe, I'll say goodbye..even if I don't believe there can be goodbye, I'll never forget. We meant to be.. I know I will have to move on.. but I just can't forget, I’ll remember you for the rest of my life.. And I'd like to have a beautiful memory(! At the moment I violently dislike you!!!!!!!!!!-__-) I'm kidding :) ..You are that brick in the wall, I violently need! :P

Xoxo

Jules